Loving me hating him

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Anger

Flaring up like a volcano

Spreading flames like a bushfire

How things have changed

From when we first met

Time, Place, Circumstances

All the sweet talk

Engulfed by anger

Who is this person

We hardly know each other

Momentarily the mind travels back

What did I love about this person

Can we go back there

Can we forget about now

Go back to the past

Is he thinking the same thing?

How much he has changed

Can I forgive him for this pain ?

Can I ?

Is it me who has changed?

My opinion about him

My circumstances

My outlook in life

Maybe he hasn't changed at all

Can I ?

Can I forgive myself ?

For hating him

Can I love the me

Hating him

To love him again



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