What Next?

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Biggest question on my mind. Have to take it slow for the first three weeks as usual since as far as the body is concerned it was just another dose. Only the mind knows that it was the last one.

But it is hard doing that. There are so many things that I want to do now that the doses are over. Nurses and doctors at the clinic say take it slowly. There are follow up tests to be done. A CT that will compare pre op to now. And bloods. Also a scan on my wrist where on session 5 the needle dislodged and the dose leaked a bit into the skin. There was a special regiment to follow for it. But the body has to heal in its cool time. So they have to do a scan on the wrist to see if it is healing properly. 

Other than that the symptoms have been usual. Nothing major or different. 2 weeks on the taste is slowly coming back but occasionally there would be a taste in the mouth that I cannot even identify. And that would not be at a time that I am eating anything even. It is some random time in the day. Drink some water and move on. 

I am planning what to do for school holidays, my birthday later in the year, how to thank family and friends who helped past few month, travelling to see family overseas etc etc But who knows what secrets my body and my destiny holds. No matter what you think you are going to do in the future you will have to succumb to what ever gets thrown your way. 

But I have to be conscious of the fact that there is the possibility it will come back. Statistical reality is 

"Ovarian cancer is Australia’s deadliest female cancer, with a 5-year survival rate of just 48%. In comparison breast cancer has a five-year survival rate of 92%. "


I joined the support group online on facebook. The stories you see there are enough to scare you away. But then I see those ladies actually get on line, go to facebook and then type in a question or details about there illness etc and I feel that it is not a quick turn of events. If it were to come back and is in a different form, it could be deadlier or there could be a cure by that time. No one knows. You could only turn to spirituality to keep going forward.

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